Sometime last week while studying for one of my papers, I felt so spiritually drained and I just wanted to give up studying. I had 0% motivation to continue reading my notes and I was feeling very angry over some personal issues. Then I just decided to stop everything I was doing and turn to God's word. I didn't have my Bible beside me so I just read Captivating, so I hope that kinda counts? Haha! Ok continue, the part I turned to (or where my bookmark just happened to be at) was the part about being Romanced. It talked about how God created us so He can romance us girls. If you notice, the Bible talks about how the church is the bride and God is the bridegroom and similarly, it's like how we are the bride and God is the bridegroom. He wants us to be ready and be loved by Him!

"What we need is for him to open our eyes, to open our ears that we might recognize his voice calling us, see his hand wooing us in the beauty that quickens our hearts."

Some things happened last week which opened up old wounds and it was extremely frustrating and I was just venting to my friend. He gave me some really sound advice but also shared how he doesn't know whether it's good that he's sharing those advice because it meant that he had been in that situation. And as I read Captivating that night, it said how "he often brings those things back into our lives, to remind us he was there, to heal and restore things that were lost or stolen".

The book mentions how there is also in God's heart a place that you alone can fill and that God wants to live this life together with you, to share in your days and decisions, your desires and disappointments. He wants your deep heart, that center place within that is the truest you.

There are so many good quotes I wish I could quote but it really struck me to know how I matter so much to Christ, how in His huge HUGE heart though I may be a small speck, I still matter. And that night as I talked to God, I really felt the comfort in my heart telling me that I don't have to be afraid because someone will always love me no matter what and will be by my side all the time, and that is Jesus. I thought about how awesome it would be in heaven once I get there and there will not be anymore tears or suffering but joy because we're all in the presence of our dear Father! Well hopefully we are all looking forward to going there :-)