Hello, so I think this post is gonna be a little 'depressing' and down, but I just need to really get this off my chest. So I'm sorry beforehand.

I think this statement is over-rated, or something along the lines of: we need to let some people go in our lives sometimes in order to live a better life or something.. It is cliche and I totally understand how this statement can be very irritating, but I think I really understood it today.

A good friend of mine (let's name her X) has been on good terms with me since I was in secondary school. I confided in X many times and she was a really good listening ear, occasionally giving me advice that was really helpful! But subsequently, she started to get all weird ever since something happened in her life. I knew about her moodswings and even in group chats, sometimes her replies were something I really didn't like. When we went out as a group (let's call this group XXX), she was also very indecisive at times. One time we were supposed to meet XXX at a restaurant/pub, and the whole XXX was on time! except her. She was 1h++ late and if you know me, I absolutely hate people being late. If I would to be late, I would inform my friends that I'll be roughly x minutes late but you don't just not say anything and turn up 1h late, expecting the whole world to accommodate to your every need. I rarely meet up with her now because of our different schedules, and she did promise me certain things which she never ever got down to doing it. (Guys, here you better watch out, because girls can have an extremely good memory when it comes down to promises) I think I can never understand her anymore, and even if I try, it's exhausting because I know she's not going to put in an effort and make her promises so there's really no point anymore.

Sorry if I'm being petty here, and I'm really sorry for typing this post. I guess what I wanna say is that I still care for her, and yup I'll be concerned about what's happening in her life, but I think I'm tired of trying already. Memories are something that are meant to be kept, and I guess I'll just leave it as it is. But if people don't bother to try or care, then I'm done trying too.

Hello! Happy 2015 New Year! Hahaha, I know this is late and we're like halfway into January already but better late than never right! :-)

Well, 2014 just went by so quickly and I think having school over this new year makes time go by 100x quicker... But nonetheless I am extremely thankful for 2014! And this is a fresh new start and for now, everything has been going good!

People say that only 10% of New Year resolutions get resolved and to be honest, I don't recall any of my 2014 resolutions.. I think setting goals is good, but lol there's obviously no point if I don't recall anything like last year. So this year, I actually wrote it down in my 2015 diary! I don't know if it's achievable or whether it's really going to work, but I want to impact my youth. It's not really starting a revolution, but to really get the community to start doing something for each other, and hopefully to let this love for serving spread! This year, the theme for YF is 'Jesus at the centre', so I'm really praying that this year will be the year I put Jesus in the centre, not to fix a spot for Him but to desire His presence such that He naturally comes into my life in my decision-making etc! I'm going to try inviting at least 1 friend to YF, and hopefully this friend (idk who yet) will end up staying! And a smaller goal would be to get my driver's license HAHAHA!

So all in all, I really pray that 2015 will be the year of seeking His presence above everything else and to serve with love and infect others with this love and burden to do something for others! Pray that I can also start thinking of what areas to serve in outside because I'm planning to do a personal project on service but I'm still unsure yet...

Well moving on to a less 'heavy' topic, ZW turned 20 last Sunday! Oh my, all the guys are turning 20 this year and it's honestly TOO FAST! I still remember sitting in front of the twins during service when I was 10 years old, and now 10 years later everyone is going to the army or are already in the army.. Also finished my DMD assignment on Monday. Let me tell you, DMD is Digital Media Design and you have to code a website all by yourself with 6 pages with full content. This module killed me and many others a little inside and I have been emotionally scarred by it.. But thank God for helping me through it despite how crappy it looked!

It's gonna be an exciting 2015 because of my internship too! I'll be interning at a music company, which is sort of a dream job because I would have to listen to loads of music there and it's basically a cool job, I wouldn't say it's chill because there will obviously be work to complete, but I really think it's gonna be one of the coolest jobs! :-) 

So for now, here's to 2015~