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Good evening~~~ Shall try to keep up with at least a monthly update and I hope I'm keeping to my word haha!

Today, I kinda just broke down in church. Somehow, it felt like many things were falling apart. I've been feeling so rejected by my friends, not intentionally but in a sense, when we arrange to meet up, suddenly they can't seem to make it. My closest friends are travelling away on my birthday and I'm sure they feel bad, I hope they do, but yeah it's just disappointing and saddening to know how I won't be seeing them on my special day. At work, things haven't been going that well either. I've been making careless mistakes, resulting in reprimands and countless reminders to buck up. It's not that I'm deliberately making mistakes but sometimes I really have no clue. My artworks are always being rejected because they aren't good enough or it isn't what my colleague has in mind. My close friend is going through friendship problems and when I try to find out what's going on he doesn't say much and just pushes me away, at least that's what I'm feeling so it's becoming a friendship problem for me. Like what the heck, there's rejection EVERYWHERE. I know my God won't reject me and He's always going to be there for me and I can always pray knowing He hears me and He knows what I am going through, but the situation I'm in just seems otherwise. I guess the work and all the relationship problems I have with my friends just accumulated and I don't really have someone to share my difficulties with on a daily basis so it just all came out. Really really thankful for my leader because he's always so patient in listening to me rant and cry my heart out and he gives the soundest advice and comfort.

If you're reading this, please pray for me, that I'll remember that I am worthy in the eyes of Jesus, and that He knows my desire and my difficulties. Pray that I'll find comfort through my trials, and take heart that things will work out in the end. Hope I always remember that my internship is determined by my own works, not by what my colleagues talk about me and as long as I do my best, I will be alright, and that I won't dread work each day because it just seems very dreary nowadays. Pray for my friendships, that I will have friends who can encourage me and not just always have fun, but to give me spiritual encouragement too.

Oh well, it hasn't been easy but today I had the word 'endurance' on my mind. In the Bible, there are many verses on endurance and I find them very comforting because it talks about how through all the hardships, it is for the greater glory of God. Will share more another time! :)