Haha, please guys, congratulate me because my nightmare is finally over! Anyway, Sunday was an awesome day (: J got baptised and everyone was so happy for him! Ok, I was super ultra happy for him ^^ Everyone cheered and wooooo-ed for him, lol! And I gave him a pink rose HAHA! All those aside, it just felt good seeing another 2 people publicly declaring that they want to follow God. His kingdom is expanding each day you know!
I actually wanted to get baptised myself the same day as J but obviously I didn't. Ever since poly started, I felt that I was backsliding as a Christian, wasn't worthy enough. The way I talk changed slightly and I wasn't proud of it. I just really felt like I wasn't good enough and I was ashamed, really. I didn't go for youth as much, constantly coming up with excuses such as "I have too much work now" or "I'm kind of tired, I need to rest". I didn't do my qt either. Basically put it, I just felt horrible and decided to scrap the idea of getting baptised. But throughout this time, this thought still remained planted at the back of my mind. After seeing him get baptised and with all the excitement, it kind of made me want to get baptised even more. Some of us may just feel that it's just dipping into water and coming out of it, like there is nothing much.
But God's word states in Matthew 28:19-20 "Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen." And I guess this has sort of "spurred" me and made me want to be a better Christian. Being baptised to me, it is a public declaration, but I think it sort of gives you reminders? Because when you're baptised, people will know you're baptised, then they will expect you to act properly. So in a sense, they will always "keep check" for you. I really hope I'm making sense, I don't really know how to put it in words... But well, you sort of get the point yeah!
I've been trying to face my difficult situations in school in a more positive way, and I must say it's helping! Believing that God will multiply my time and give me more time to complete my work. I guess for now, school work is manageable, or maybe because my datelines are next week that's why I'm not that kanchiong yet lol! But yes, I believe I can do it, and I can achieve it (self-efficacy hah!) HOORAY!
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